Man proposes God disposes.... i ask why.
What a day!!!! It started off pretty nicely with my Mom's birthday on my mind. I woke up pretty late and the first thing i did was wish my mom. She is the best person in the world and the only one who could make me cry. The whole morning was spent in preparing for the special lunch. My sweetheart, the one year old deepika had come with her family. The menu was mysore masala dosa. I had spent considerable amount of time grating carrots, beetroots etc. But it was worth it. The lunch was a hit and I spent great time with my sweetheart.
Later in the noon i was surfing the Internet and around 4 i get a text message from my friend. It just said "Chibbar left us".
That message hit me like a meteorite. My mind went blank completely. Never it had happened before. Akshay Chibbar, one of my closest buddies was dead. He was in coma for 6 days now after a terrible car crash. I called pinku, the friend who messaged me. He was at the mumbai airport about to board a flight for delhi to see Akshay's condition when he got the call from akshay's mom. I was crying when i spoke to pinku. I know even he was. The call length was for 3 minutes but we were silent for more than 2 and half minutes. All I could say to him was "I would call up later".
I left my room, went to my bed and was lying there totally unaware of the world. My parents thought I was asleep but actually I wasn't. I was broken; broken into million pieces. The loss of my friend was still sinking and I couldn't bear to see my mom. Today was the day she was born 48 years ago and today is the day I lost my closest friend. Had i faced her I would have wept into her arms. She has this magic of getting the tears out of my glands.
I got up from my bed at 6. Told my mom about Akshay. She was shocked and upset. I shouldn't have done that but I just couldn't stop myself. Later in the evening I went out with my dad for some shopping. He told me that there are 2 things in the world which God has reserved the rights to himself. These are Birth and Death. Neither of these could be manipulated by humans and we should accept it as everything happens for a good reason. I had this little spiritual chat which helped me overcome the shock.
At night we had a family get-together with my relatives coming over for dinner. Things did become lighter in my head but the moment I close my eyes Noni's(Akshay) face pops right in front. It would be sometime before I can be normal.
Till the next post....Bye bye
About Me
- Suheil Karkera
- Describing myself is the most confusing task ever. I have many forms. I have been the biggest prankster at school and also the most serious thinker at college. I was the carefree,I-dont-give-a-damn attitude guy and also the most caring and loving person. I have been the rock solid emotionless freak and also the crying baby in my mother's arms. Life has metamorphosed me into various forms and would continue to do it. All that is original about me is my heart which would never change. Sorry I cannot describe it as it is far too complex. All you need to know about me is I am Suheil Karkera
1 comment:
Death is obligatory to all of us, albeit, the sudden loss of any close acquaintance is always shocking. A few of those occupy an eternal place in our heart. A few among these people share an enormous set of cherish-able memories. And very few, like Akshay, as you described up there, make a permanent space for them in our hearts. Immortal-mortals, I like to term them.
Yep, its always inexpressibly worse when someone goes so early. But, as we all have to walk that path sometime down the timeline, it would really be a greatest achievement, if we all make a resolute decision to follow such exemplars, like Akshay, and perform thus noble deeds before we fade away, so that when we do, we would have ingrained ourselves of others minds and hearts, eternally.
I honestly feel, that would be the most ideal sarthak of our life.
My deepest condolences to Akshay's family and all his close friends. May he R.I.P.
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